the gateway student led devotions this morning. and i remember now what it was like to be 20. to be excited about every little thing that i was learning and to have so much time to reflect and process and to write in a journal. where, every little surrender to the lord was a big deal and gratitude was fresh. i don't necessarily think i'm less spiritual, or less joyful. but, maybe less wide-eyed, a little aged by the turbulent 20's storms, and my hope is sharper but less plush.