loves peace. avoids conflict.

so i have this patient,

and she was very honest with me in the beginning.
she told me she's been hurt before.
that she doesn't trust anyone.
but she has a good feeling about me.
and is willing to give me a chance.
she briefly alluded to the fact that she's had a heroin problem.

i helped her a little bit and she was really thankful.
she tried to give me lots of ego massages.
she said that i was the only one for her.
that she wouldn't trust anyone else.

then she started flaking on me.
and then started making up stories.
and then started trying to manipulate me.
and confessed she had a drug problem.
and then tried to assure me that she didn't have a drug problem.
and then tried to assure me that she wasn't trying to manipulate me.

it became clear that she loved drugs more than me.

i gave her lots of grace.

and today was supposed to be the final test.
she blew up at my staff on the phone.
then requested that i call her back.
my staff told me to let her go.

i called her back and got her voice mail.

and didn't have the heart[lessness] to dismiss someone via voice mail.

anyway, hope she gets better.
and/or doesn't call me back tomorrow.